Fuck- which immediately got my attention.  For those of you who have read my novel, Sunny’s Story, know that Sunny uses that word a lot..not unlike her author….

I read the link, which was a blog written by Mike Hrostoski and actually posted on FB, last October.  He and his wife were playing a game called,’ Fuck You Spiritual People for using Gratitude as a Bypass to Your Anger’.  They let ‘her rip’ as they went through the list of things on their minds and hearts.  I fell in love with the game immediately.

Earlier that day I had woken up at 5 am.  I lay in bed with lots of thoughts traveling through my mind.  What started out as a positive journey quickly turned to yuck.  Actually what I said to my husband when I got up at 6 and he asked me why I was getting up so early was, “I’m going to write…my thoughts have turned to poopy and I need to get them out of here,” I said pointing to my head.

And write I did…my hand was working quicker than lightning; putting the thoughts running through my head down onto the page.  Taking a sip of coffee, I was ready to move on to the next page when I looked up and there sitting across from me was my husband.

“What’s wrong?” he asked.

So I told him.  I told him everything that was bothering me…worries over my three kids, my mom, sister, being questioned and second guessed, feeling like some things were never going to change and other changes that were happening way too fast.

The thing is, that after I’d finished, although nothing had outwardly changed, I felt good again.  And I realized that by expressing what I was feeling on paper and then to someone who loves me, I’d freed myself from the unhappiness surrounding it.

So when I got Gayle’s email and read the link…I jumped in and played the game…adding my own list.  Fun! Another way for me to further unleash the ties that held me to the yuck.  It is so empowering to say F..Y..to whatever it is you’re afraid to say.  And freeing.

I know there are a lot of people out there that will take offense to the use of this word.  And I get that.

But sometimes its just fun to say it………